Why I Do What I Do

When you think about your life and your main passion, what comes to mind? Is it something you do in your spare time, or do you make a living doing it? If you make a living doing it, do you feel as though you were called to do what you’re doing?

CJ - Oct event - CJ closeupI do. I feel called. I feel it is the Universe, God, Spirit, or whatever that force is that has designed my life, such that I suffered for years, and then healed. I did more than heal, actually. I discovered forgiveness.  At any rate, I do what I do because when I have a client tell me that their life changed because of forgiveness, because of the process I led them through, it touches my soul. I know that another Being has been set free. That makes my heart soar.

I feel Spirit wants me to share with others how I healed, so that they, too, may heal.

I do what I do today because of that place I discovered that exists when we heal from emotional wounds. That “place” is peace that is all-consuming. It is freedom from the anger and bitterness… freedom from the weight of carrying all the stress or unhappiness or resentment. I want to share this place with you and others. The image below and to the right is Promise of Peace. It’s from my book, Opening the Gates of the Heart: A Journey of Healing. When you begin the healing process, there is a promise of peace. 

Promise of Peace

Maybe you don’t feel the unhappiness or the stress, yet, there may be a story lurking that is actually affecting you in some way of which you are unaware. I worked with a client who didn’t know she had a story until she heard me speak and tell my forgiveness story. At that point, she realized she did  have a story. She believed her father never loved her, and she resented him for that. She eventually forgave him with the support of one of my programs.

You, too, may discover that you have a story deep down, that is waiting to be acknowledged and healed… resolved. It takes courage to start the journey, yet, once you begin, Spirit helps you out. 

My mentoring and leadership got its start during the 26 years I was a registered nurse; I guided hundreds of people in physical and emotional matters. During that time, while employed by the State of Colorado Medicaid Department as  a Nurse Resource Consultant, I proved my ability to create programs. I created, developed, and managed a program for medically fragile children who were dependent upon sophisticated and high-tech equipment for their lives. They were living in the hospital intensive care units so they could have nursing care 24/7.

The program I designed allowed them to go home with the assistance of hourly nursing care. We saw medical, emotional, and developmental miracles happen with children in this program. I led them to change their story, and it drastically changed their lives.                          

I bring to my practice today the same skill and expertise I used to develop the children’s program. I lead people out of their emotional prison so they can find the courage to set themselves free. They then live in a space of courage…

Perhaps at this point, you are interested in my background, so please allow me to share a bit about it and what it is that leads me to what I’m doing in present day. I started adulthood as an angry and fearful person, terrified, actually, filled with feelings of worthlessness, huge self-doubt, and a self-esteem that was in the toilet. Fueled by my drinking and drugging, those feelings, and especially my anger, grew over the next thirty years into extreme bitterness. I blamed everything and everyone for my problems, and certainly all my failures. I was a perfect victim. This went on for thirty years! I had no understanding that I could change my situation simply by looking at things from a different perspective. 

Finally, I hit rock-bottom with my drinking and drugging. It was because of an unrequited love. I was in great fear… terrified. After two months of nothing but drinking and crying, I was guided to sobriety… after I prayed… desperate for help. After I was sober for four years, I discovered a way to forgive my past, and that is when the rocks fell out of my backpack, and the weight rolled off my back. The peace and joy have happened at deeper and deeper levels, over time.

Invitation of Dialogue

Invitation of Dialogue

So here I was, a woman who couldn’t see that she had a choice, couldn’t see that she played a part in what was happening to her… couldn’t see she had a story – many of them. As I began to heal more and more, and to use Spirit as my confidant and guide, I began to see how my actions and behaviors led to certain experiences and situations. As I explored my behaviors and actions in retrospect, I began to gain a feeling of freedom and empowerment. To this day, doing a self-appraisal, having a dialogue with myself, leads to more healing and feelings of being empowered. I invite you to dialogue with yourself.

Speaking and coaching are the two methods I now use to spread my forgiveness work, and it is changing lives. Recently, I presented my program, Freedom from Resentment: The Art of Forgiveness, at San Quentin State Prison’s as part of the California Re-entry Institute, a two-year program that prepares them for parole. It was so well received, and my spirit soared when a few of the guys relayed they’d been able to forgive people they never thought they could, all because of my program. It was a very rich experience. 

The website you have before you is an out-pouring of my heart in regard to my services, such as my speaking and coaching, and my products, such as my book. I welcome you here and wish for you a peaceful and enjoyable visit. I also wish for you a recognition and healing of any story you may have, so you may heal from it. To your peace and freedom, cj

Freedom From Resentment

Freedom From Resentment


Images taken from the book, Opening the Gates of the Heart: A Journey of Healing.
Tiers of Forgiveness, Promise of Peace, Spaces of Courage, Webs of Fear, and Invitation of Dialogue
Copyright (c) 2010, Carolyn C Jones, All Rights Reserved. Do not use without permission, please.