You can commit to your sobriety. You can commit to the journey, for it truly is a journey.
What do I mean by committing to the journey? I mean sticking with it, remaining sober, no matter what, no matter what you are feeling or thinking. It will get uncomfortable at times, at least it did for me. And the reward comes by staying sober. That reward is beyond words.
I began experiencing feelings that had been numbed for 27 years, the length of my drinking days. They were extremely painful, so much so, that I sometimes stated that my life was better when I was drinking, that I should start drinking again. But I discovered that was not true.
Some grace kept me sober during those times. Perhaps it was my higher consciousness that knew it would get better, that sobriety was the last stop on the block.
What I so pleasantly discovered one day was how freeing and peaceful sobriety is. In other words, I made it to the other side of my pain and it was well worth the hell I went through.
I have found in sobriety the peace and freedom I looked for in drugs and alcohol, and never could find. I have found it living a sober life and it is ten times more spectacular than I ever could have imagined.
If you decide to commit to the journey of a sober life, it will one day be for you a place of peace and joy, gratitude and love. Know that the journey has no destination, just the continued walk past the leaves, the buds, and other moments. Remember to slow down and notice the little things all around you, all the buds and flowers on your path. If you commit to sobriety and its journey, may you enjoy them. I wish you the best.